16” x 20” Original Painting

Being autistic and an ADHDer, I have really big feelings in all facets.

In 2020, I heard the famous "to be or not to be" for the millionth time and thought "What if it was To Pee or Not To Pee?" and the thought amused me so much, I painted it. That piece remained untouched in my closet for 4 years until I dug it out and realized it needed a complete makeover, especially for a submission to an exhibition. I bought a frame and customized it to give the piece a bit of panache and vóila! The style I was trying to create was a whimsical baroque though I ended up with a Rugrats-esque thing. This piece is a great example of how sometimes the art makes itself. It turned out "wrong" but still perfect. Better than what I expected.

In 2024, I got into a car accident the night I went out to celebrate my birthday. A week later, the person that I didn't realize was lovebombing me, broke my heart. A few weeks later, my coworker and temporary ride to work verbally accosted me, severing the agreement we had. The stress of losing my car, trying to find a way to work everyday, and how to pay for a new car, coupled with the pain of having my heart broken and subconsciously knowing deep down that someone had taken advantage of my loving and trusting nature was too much. I was weeping constantly, losing weight from skipping meals, and not taking care of myself. A loved one saw me and said it was as if I was screaming even though I remained silent while out in public. As I slowly started to emerge from deep abyss of pain that was consuming me daily, I created Silent Scream to commemorate my pain and stop if from devouring me completely.